forgiveness?

my morning facebook-browsing-ritual made me search up on “forgiveness and acceptance”. not that i was trying to poke my nose in people’s lives.. well, sort of, but i felt like replying to someone’s casual or not, comment that she shared, even though she’s a hi-bye friend whom i met in school. never gotten the chance to know her better.

i’ve gotten the quote from this link, and although im not a christian, i find that it makes sense, and it might be potentially therapeutic. 

If I refuse to forgive, its a sin against myself.

” The roots of unforgiveness are pride, vainglory, arrogance, and conceit. If I refuse to forgive someone, it is my sin….. We refuse to forgive because we feel justified in our resentment and bitterness.  To harbor bitterness is unadulterated pride and conceit, and we alienate ourselves from Christ. Resentment and bitterness are cancer in the soul, which will destroy us if we do not forgive and become reconciled. Such bitterness is often the root of addictions, which are simply attempts to anesthetize the pain of our own self-condemnation. We torment ourselves with the remembrance of wrongs and wallow in our self-pity, thinking ourselves the innocent victims.”

so, does that mean that by forgiving we are releasing ourselves from the torments that we have further created subsequent to .. the sins of others?

or is it fate that we have to accept and fmove on. peace will always be beyond our reach.

ohk, im confused.

my brief update for the last day.

This semester has officially come to an end yesterday in Emily Carr University. well, not exactly, but because we kinda handed in the modeling assignment one week earlier. although instructorbob told us that it was due last friday, we met Timu yesterday and he said that it was due tmr. hmmmm. confused. but oh wells, it had already made me start on my final aftereffects assignment late and gave me those shivering panic attacks. then again, who am i to blame but myself, yet again?

i took a photojournal of my last day in school but i haven’t uploaded them. took a 12 hours FANTASTIC sleep. and woke up feeling like a little chinchilla ready to run! only to realise that my knees are still aching. which makes me wonder if i had been exercising in my sleep.

why would my knees hurt if i hadn’t been OUT OF THE HOUSE for the past one week? that was weird and ShannonTheFellowAng asked if it was my left knee since there was a peculiar trend of the pain-in-the-left-knee thing goin around in ECU..

JaceTheEyeCandy was mad at his sound designer cos he was uncontactable and their gradfilm is due in 20 days’ time!! how i wished i could be his sound designer. 

so.. we went for the media show and i was impressed with SamsonLame’s piece.. i wonder if i can rip it off from him and store them in my harddisk .. and promote him to friends!! loll.. we have been tryin to match make him with every girl we deem suitable. cos.. he’s really a nice fella with a lame sense of humour that girls won’t particularly mind. he’s tall, dark [even during winter] and handsome!!.. i believe beneath those checkered shirts lie his abs. hahaa.. and what’s more, he’s THE.AE.KING.. so girls, grab him when he’s still available.

best if you could stalk him.

i’m busy doing up my portfolio, well, actually fretting over them cos it’d be the first time im applyin for a job!! my new found love is After Effects. my all time love has been awesome – illustrator. just that what’s on the list that the school gave out for the animation faculty was not what im looking for. 

will the onemanshow person please take me in?? i really like ur motion graphics and i dont’ mind working for free.

golub my pet fish.

so does Golub make u feel like kissing.. her? wahahhaha

crop adventure

i don’t noe if i’ve posted up this picture over here before. but i would really love to have my hair like that. 

words

it only takes a spark, to set a forest on fire. it only takes a wrongly placed word out of your mouth to ruin the world, turn harmony into chaos, burn friendships.

stop eating away people’s spirits. no one wants to be nibbled to death by ducks. no one wishes to be alive but in pain. so, a reminder to all, that words are not meant to hurt, but to say i love you.

don’t you agree too?

this is the waterfall in Portland

live footage.

screenshot of AE.

super random hello

our Moodle-Project was a way of connecting with ourselves. rachelTong i wonder if u’re still stickin to that mini proj of ours. sad to say and embarrased to admit, i haven’t been updating for months.. well, hello =]]

not so random #19827

people getting punched in slow motion [at 1000 frames per second!!], slo motion effect is typically achieved when each film rate is captured at a rate much faster than it will be played back.

anws, had art history class today. the video to end it off was War Photographer. It is a documentary about photographer James Nachtwey. As well as telling the story of an iconic man in the field of war photography, the film addresses the broader scope of ideas common to all those involved in war journalism, as well as the issues that they cover.

do watch it. this is just a small part of the documentary though.

it was touching, inspiring, heartwrenching, all sorts of feelings welling up within me. the things he witnessed, how he controlled his own emotions amidst the chaos and uncertainty. how he went all out, fought alone and giving his all, with his entire heart mind eyes body soul and with one wish to change the world.. to tell the world the stories of the people. with the subjects being more important.. than himself for all of the time.

“Every minute I was there, I wanted to flee.
I did not want to see this.
Would I cut and run, or would I deal with
the responsibility of being there with a camera”

- James Nacthwey

i would have crumbled.

his talk at TED’s

looks normal eh?

it started off as yiz’s version of aglio olio, named yizzio.itchillio..

then i saw the skippy’s peanut butter bottle.. so i spammed peanut butter, plus miracle whip.. [taste almost like mayo dressing], fish sauce cos i wanan save on soya sauce loll.. and some chilli..

nice leh.. we’ll wait to see if this will result to the invasion of the liquidpoo. aka diarrhoea.. aka Birds flying south for the winter.. aka Rectum Rapids..

ohk enough. enough of poo talk.

‘the world is in a mess….i need to.. rule it.’

Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog is a 43-minute musical film, initially produced exclusively for Internet distribution. It tells the story of Dr. Horrible, the aspiring supervillain alter ego of Billy; Captain Hammer, his nemesis; and Penny, their mutual love interest.

and to end off this post,

they rule.. because..

because, because, BECAUSE, i said so, i said so, i said so, I SAID SO.

Q scolded me.

After blaming myself for being too bigheaded about successfully waking at 9am BUT goin back into sleep, and listening to nice songs that SamsonLame fed Sharebear the folder in dropbox for april fool’s, i was greeted with Q in my email.

“What keeps so many people back is simply unwillingness to pay the price, to make the exertion, the effort to sacrifice their ease and comfort.”

that’s all u need to say to pull out that guilt in me. abacadabraaa..

eternally muted. eternally stranded.

how will i know that i’m not alone if i’m not supposed to talk about it.

today?

in the last 12 hours, i had fun. 

i also overheard a conversation between two people on the bus, eavesdropped actually. and i was left with something that made me think twice.

that is to not judge people upon the initial interactions with have with them, worse still, first impressions, if not we’ll never ever get the chance to know how good or nice these people can actually be.

hmm if u don’t know still, im pretty much a very-affected-by-first-impressions kinda person which is bad apparently, cos its tough to give the other party a chance to show that they’r not that bad afterall. but THEN AGAIN, some peopel are just nasty/idiotic/bahhh that i won’t wanna talk to them ever again or even know them better. so how like that?

also, being a halfcrazy follower of YI QIE WAN MEI [yeahh still friendly-ly sore about NO ONE TELLING ME that YI QIE WAN MEI 2 is OUT -.- ] , i watched 7 episodes within.. 3 days? and within the last 12 hours, i learnt that we will never know what will happen until we try. we need to find that courage to pursue our happiness.. 

aiya i feel damn lame talkin about what i  have learnt. either way. i spent 100CAD on American Eagle Outfitters. too impulsive again man. they shall be presents. although i’d like to keep all 3 tops i bought for myself.. mayb its time to share the joy with my sister and reg. oh well but yeah but we had fun. dreaming about striking the lottery.

2.5million is gone. will we be rich tmr evening?

the adventure of the young&stupid. will write about it when the pictures are up.

hmmmm im thinkin about..

doing a pop up thing in AE for my final AE assignment of the semester.. not that it’ll be anything like this youtube clip but isnt it just fun to watch it? heh

btw did sth for Stentorian for my 2nd AE assignment. don’t think will put it up just yet cos there’s alot of things i wanan change! after school that is. =]]

if you’ve [counting.. 20 people who have seen it? and only 2 knows of this wordpress] seen the stentorian clip that i did, pls give me some feedback. like what to change and what not.. esp timing, the illustrations.. blah..

crescent teachers

oh man i’ve just went to crescentgirls’school facebook profile and saw all the pictures of the school and teachers that crescentians has put in. it brought back super a lot of memories.. and although i’ve always said that i’ve lived my past 20 years of life half asleep, esp right up till AFTER jc, it kinda touched my heart seeing the same teachers again who stayed on in crescent, after so many years.

like how Mrs Shirlyn Koh became our SS teacher and we bitch about her yet love her at the same time, when she talked about her cute daughter Ariel, and then she got pregnant again, how we bitch about Ms Eleanor Seah [damn we were how bitchy], but she was our form teacher and how we felt so unloved, then she got married.. how mr seow looks like an ant head and i rem him telling me that a shuttlecock is not a ball during oral test..

how mrsNEO’s specs looked like the science lab googles.. how our homeecons teacher looked like mavis’s mom. how magaretleong gave yarn her new name, yarn.. how zhaofang made us climb up and down the rotunda many many times cos we locked her out of the class and she got really pissed. how i was scheduled to talk infront of the ENTIRE school during assembly and how relieved i was when it was cancelled due to SARS.. how the dustbinianz play pingpong in the most unusual and creative way..

how mr chan left maths department and now he’s still not in maths department, how s-lim actually could become an art teacher, how karen tan is so young and fiesty as a newbie, devoted too no doubt, how mrMiranda looked so comical and that he was a lawyer.. or sth along that line. some of them were not my teachers at all but it was so nice to talk about them.. girls.. ahahaha

how news got spread around even before i know it myself that i TOPPED THE DAMN LEVEL IN express CHINESE in sec 2 !! WAHAHAHH AMAZING ISNT IT?

how mrsyap asked someone to help her throw the water in the container away and bchun emptied it not into the drain at the corridor, but into the drain 4 stories down, [luckily no one was walking downstairs at the area]. and how she said i was her favourite student when i ponned class one day!!

on and on i shouldn’t flood my own post..

but in particularly, i’d like to mention msElaineChua.. i miss her man, i can’t make out if i do actually have a crush on her hahaa no im not the freaky sort. you see, i’ve always been good in math -flips hair- and during her lessons i’ll just keep stoning, or doing other questions in advance.. i never fell asleep during her lessons. and i like her, alot. i think she’s really good and inspiring. and, i just added her on facebook! i wonder if she remembers her top student. AHAHAHAHHAHA, but what a shame my math now can barely make it. =s sorry mommie, sorry mschua, sorry mshafizah..

but anws, there’s zhaofang too and mslim [chinese teacher].. and then one of the photos i saw badminton training! o..O wow did that revive badminton in crescent?

suddenly, im all so eager to go back to have a look.

then again, i’ve been saying that for the past 5 years cos i miss the food tremendously. but now, i really do wanna go back and say hello, even if they don’t remember me.

..

 

The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.

 

 

this appeared in my email shortly after the previous post.

hmm

 

 

 

 

i wonder..

what have i always been fascinated by since young? i have no idea, mayb that’s why im lost.

quote of the day

i subscribed to this site a prob a week ago when im feeling all down about my work.. actually i can’t rem, im down 32hours a day anyway man..whioppe

btw its called the inspirationandmotivation.com.. just a random word that came up in an msn conversation. the kinda way we exaggerate stuff. like we’ve got style man.. style.com.. kaypoh.com..kiampah.com, blahblah..

thing is, there’s actually such site! and everyday, they send an email to me with an inspiringandmotivating quote which i love love. ahahah sometimes dont’ u just agree that u need such words to keep going?

well, i think sometimes it pretty much enlightens and inspires me =]]

‘What is necessary to change a person is to change his awareness of himself. -Abraham Maslow’

always look on the bright side of life..

=]]

oooh so demuree

but look at the awkward hands and that uneven tan. hmm, time flies. don’t know if i still have the energy for orientation camps.